Hello welcome to my magical carrd :3!!

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Hi!! my names are fraulein/fran/sunny im 15 southeast asian filipino age regressor agender aromantic asexual magical girl lesbian >:3 gemini infp 4w5 prns: it/they/doll/he
I love RPG horror games, indie horror games, rhythm games, dark fantasy psychological horror magical girl animes, mystery dementia psychological horror thriller action animes, sanrio, kids cartoon shows, vocaloid, studio ghibli & tim burton movies, reading manga & books, drawing, writing, singing, cute stuff, plushies, hairclips, pastel colors, diy bead accesories, pastel decora, scene/emo culture, lolita fashion, mall goth fashion, nostalgia, coryxkenshin, markiplier, jacksepticeye, manlybadasshero

Games: mad father, ib, witch's house, yume nikki, misao, omori, off, fran bow, sally face, night in the woods, undertale, endroll, walking on a star unknown, farethere city, hello charlotte, paranormal syndrome, chloe's requiem, bury, forest of drizzling rain, angels of death, noel:the mortal fate, fausts alpatraum, midnight train, aria's story, pocket mirror, bevel's painting, pallette, the casebook of arne, blank dream, blight dream, nightmare of the snow, bloodsoup, distraint, 7 years from now, father and son, nekra psaria, dentures and demons, seven mysteries, dreaming mary, project kat, corpse party, witch's heart, wadanohara and the great blue sea, gray garden, ice scream, yttd, alice mare, liEat series, ayakashi akashi, the faceless double, space funeral, middens, stray cat crossing, oneshot, yanderella, dark side of red riding hood, underworld capital incident, re:kinder, strange men series(crooked man, sandman, boogie man, hangman), mermaid swamp, paranoiac, insanity, imaginary friends, tomorrow wont come to those without ____, at the tale end, gote handa, amayada bus stop, shiro no noroi, asadoke no majo, enigma: an illusion named family, fantasy maidens odd hideout, god of crawling eyes, schuld, lisa, hand in hand, the desolate hospital, densha, town of tides, neverending nightmares, oxenfree, little misfortune, ddlc, needy streamer overload, bandori, the idolmaster cinderella girls, ensemble stars, twisted wonderland, genshin impact and a lot more
Anime & Manga: magical girl madoka magica, magical girl site, magical girl apocalypse (manga), menhera-chan (manga), wonder egg priority, magical girl raising project, school-live, happy sugar life, talentless nana, wandering witch elaina, higurashi when they cry, summertime rendering, made in abyss, flip flappers, yuuki yuuna is a hero, uta kuta, another, ghost hound, haibane renmei, junji ito collection, shadows house, yamishibai: japanese ghost stories, boogiepop phantom, shinsekai yori, toilet bound hanako kun, angel beats, land of the lustrous, the promised neverland, onegai my melody, my neighbor totoro, ponyo, shugo chara, precure, sailor moon, princess tutu, love-live, perfect blue, paprika, millenium actress, tokyo godfathers, ghost in the shell, paranoia agent, flcl, neon genesis evangelion, serial experiments lain, monster, 20th century boys, chainsaw man, ergo proxy, death note, devilman: crybaby, hell girl, hellsing, elfen lied, stein's gate, psycho pass, erased, death parade, shiki, mushishi, tatami galaxy, welcome to the nhk, mononoke, black butler, angels egg, cowboy bebop, spy x family, nana, paradise kiss, neighborhood story, akira, ohshc, yuri on ice, boy meets maria (manga), the stranger by the shore (manga), oyasumi punpun (manga), a lollypop or a bullet (manga), happiness (manga), komi cant communicate, chunibyo, one piece, your lie in april, violet evergarden, assasination classroom, saiki k and a lot more
Kids cartoon shows: adventure time, the amazing world of gumball, regular show, clarence, craig of the creek, steven universe, star vs the forces of evil, gravity falls, summer camp island, courage the cowardly dog, bunnicula, loud house, we bare bears, teen titans go, my little pony, hello kitty, winnie the pooh, dibo the gift dragon, onegai my melody, my little twin stars, cinnamoroll the movie, care bears, strawberry shortcake, invader zim, lalaloopsy
Movies & Shows: stranger things, the umbrella academy, it, coraline, corpse bride, monster house, paranorman, the nightmare before christmas, frankenweenie, jack and the cuckoo clock heart, charlie and the chocolate factory, alice in wonderland, edward scissorhands, the addams family, boxtrolls, the chronicles of narnia, the lorax, ponyo, my neighbor totoro, mai mai miracle, howl's moving castle, when marnie was there, arrietty, the tale of princess kaguya, from up on poppy hill, spirited away, whisper of the heart, kiki's delivery service
Music: mitski, siinamota, kikuo, boa, steampianist, pierce the veil, all time low, system of a down, slipknot, korn, my chemical romance, sleeping with sirens, radiohead, suicide silence, asking alexandria, hawthorn heights, black veil brides, bring me the horizon, babymetal, nirvana, three days grace, pantera,the cure, fall out boy, paramore, panic! at the disco, radiohead, 3oh!3, avril lavinge, the used, the distillers, murder dolls, sohodolls, the dresden dolls, deftones, falling in reverse, leathermouth, cute is what we aim for, attack attack!, a day to remember, kittie, bauhaus, we came as romans, mayday parade, destroy boys, escape the fate, melanie martinezPlease do keep in mind that i do not support any problematic rpg maker creators/artists such as dsp, omocat charon etc & that i haven't finished playing/watching all of the games/animes listed above

DNI
basic dni criteria list e.g. racist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist etc.
pro-shippers
fujoshi
pedophiles
proud l0l!c0ns/sh0t@c0ns
if u dont respect ppls pronouns
if you sexualize age regression
if you fake mental disorders/illnesses
if you support deep sea prisoner/funamusea/okegom
if ur unironically animesexual etc.
problematic & toxic twt/tt ppl
dsmp/mcyt stans
if you have any kinks/fetish (esp if ur a minor)

TRIGGER WARNING : mentions of s//cide, s3/lf h@rm, intrusive thoughts

I am extremely shy & quiet, i dont know how to start/carry/keep up conversations or talk to ppl in general bc im anxious, have zero social skills, and an awkward mess (but if we share the same interests pls do int i love to make friends though idk how to keep them :( if u want 2 know more abt me feel free to read my other carrd in the links down below), im a people pleaser and apologize like a lot, i forget stuff easily & have a really hard time remembering and focusing/concentrating, i often procrastinate and get distracted very easily then lose motivation to do anything, i overthink a lot which leads to either a very short or long mental breakdown, i often have very very grotesque/unthinkable unwanted uncontrollable twisted dark thoughts and avoid things/situations that trigger them, i have severe trust issues, attachment issues and abandonment issues n have a lot of failed/toxic relationships (mostly friend groups so im sorry if i get clingy or annoying) which is why i don't really trust ppl that much and end up pushing them away, i avoid friendships and relationships bc i find them very difficult to handle, my mood switches up very quickly and i have trouble controlling my emotions, sometimes i let my emotions get the best of me and i end up doing things i will regret, i am very paranoid & insane, i always feel like someone is watching, recording or s3xu4lizing me, i isolate myself a lot and distract myself constantly to avoid dark/su1cid@l/s3lfh4rm thoughts, i don't know how to vent/open up to ppl since i bottle up my feelings so much to the point where it either overflows and i cry out of nowhere at the worst possible time or i feel very numb and cant cry for more than 3 minutes, the way i feel about the people in my life can change very quickly from one moment to the next, i have very unhealthy coping mechanisms and often joke abt MY attempted su1c!d3s/sh, sometimes i randomly have a very unclear self image and i don't know who i am or i genuinely forget who i am, most of the time i feel more comfortable venting in my vent/rant book but when i do vent to someone i would accidentally overshare and regret it later on, i blame myself constantly and always feel worthless or a burden due to trauma, i am very insecure and often cringe/regret at things i say or do, i have severe anger issues and get irritated very easily, sometimes i randomly lose interest at something i love so much and get really mad bc its the only thing that's keeping me alive, i age regress constantly and watch some kids shows or ghibli movies to help me cope, i am extremely mentally unstable and really need to get help, i plan to get diagnosed soon when i get money but i'm flat out broke and there aren't any therapists in my area.

sorry 4 the rant anyways
that is all thank you for reading :)